It’s kind of like.. the difference between putting your hand on your knee, and him putting his hand on your knee. When you touch your knee, you don’t feel it, nothing happens, it’s just there. But when he has his hand there, you feel everything. Every move of his palm, every squeeze of his hand, and every brush of his finger. And you feel it right down to your toes and up to your neck. Everything in your body tingles, but it’s the most wonderful thing ever. Every move he makes, he makes a difference.
Take Me Home, Country Roads - John Denver
This will be played at my wedding, no excuses.
NO, I think the distance is harder when you get no physical reciprication.
You never meet, and when it’s over you have this gaping hole filled with all the months of craving. You know that hole will be sticking around because you will NEVER get that fulfillment. He will never give you all the intimacy he owes you.
All the months of falling asleep holding yourself and wanting him there so badly you started to cry.
& at this point in my life - that has to be the worst thing I have ever felt.
The problem is, you never forget your first love. And even if your brain’s smart about it, your heart’s got the IQ of a fruit fly.
I can’t be with someone who has doubts, no matter how small they are. I need someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him. I don’t want just part of your heart, I want all of it.
I don’t have a fear of commitment; I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant - I want to be too close. I get confused, and I don’t understand all of it, but I keep pushing because I have faith in this thing - the universe. There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants it this bad. If I want it, someone else out there must too.
I am sick of hearing, "do anything for love!"
No. No I won’t, not anymore.
I don’t see the point in ‘giving up everything for love’ when you’re fairly certain the other party isn’t interested in you romantically. You can love someone and recognize that pursuing that person will only end in disappointment and sadness. Why would I opt to hurt myself in order to make sure that the other party is in FACT 100% not interested. We have intuition for a reason.
